This is Me

Alright, the last post I made I was a bit cranky. 

But I'm all better now.

Today, I went out for lunch with Alistair and it was great. I think we're finally passed all that crap before and finally becoming friends. Got him to laugh at least! ^__^ Hah! Score one for me!

Guess maybe I'm not such an asshole as I thought I am. Huh, surprised me :D

Anyways, I'm gonna go and see what Amy's up to.  Later.

 

 

All this hate here, damn. Even the headmasters are caught up in it.

Is it me, or is this just plain fucked up? Or I guess being isolated from the real world has given people some powertrips.  Is there even law enforcement out here?

Reminds me of the foster care system.  They say it's for the best of the child, but honestly...I think I was better off back in NY with my dad smacking me around a bit. At least then it was honest and upfront.

Not like here, who they say they care and are trying to help, but really only give an ass for themselves and their own fucking drama. Is anyone even getting any real treatment here?! God...

I honestly can say I wish I was back home now.

I fucking hate this place.

Well I've been going out more and stuff. This place isnt so bad. It's actually a whole lot of fun if you know the right people. Still, there are times when I feel the emo ness of the place creep up. Not really emoness...its more like...well I think sooner or later, I'm going to have to deal with all the crap that I never dealt with, you know?

I think it's just how this place is and the people here. 

But I think I'll still be emo free for a while longer. 

I'm pretty stubborn. 

Well I've been unusually good lately. Haven't broken a single rule yet. Thats so unlike me...Maybe cause Dad's not here to get all pissed off and have his dumb ass friends tell him what a lame ass father he is. And then hit me a few times before grounding me, which is stupid cause I just sneak out to do it all over again.

That was always fun.

I don't know. Maybe i'm cured! Whoo! Send me back home then! Hah!

Maybe I'm depressed. I dont feel like it. I dont even feel that angry anymore. Maybe I've just given in.  Who knows.

Man I'm chatty tonight. Maybe I should actually get offline and do something...perhaps break in a house or two to just steal some beer or something.

Hah! It's not illegal in writing! Can't punish me!!

Gaaaaah. 

I miss New York.

Alright then, first post. 

Yep.

....

What the hell am I supposed to say here anyways? I'm not used to this kind of crap. Um...

Well, I arrived to this place thinking it was going to be some kind of prison, but  I've been surprised.  It's not the lanscape and the beaches that surprised me though. Actually all the water kind of disturbs me. I lived most of my life in a city. I'm used to being surrounded by noise and people, not  silence and endless water. Total isolation. Creeps me the fuck out. But ....well the people here are rather cool.  I mean, I got one hell of a welcoming, if you know what I mean.

Well,  I don't really like talking about things like that, even in my own journal. But lets just say this.

Maybe this isn't going to suck as much as I thought.